It’s day 15, and I’m supposed to have 25,000 words. I just looked and I have 15,000. *sigh* *facepalm*
Honestly, though, for the most part, NaNo has gone a lot better than I expected. In past years, I’d only get to day 2 or 3 before I froze up, freaked out, and quit. I’m getting the urge to quit now, since I’m so far behind, but I don’t think I will.
My goal this year was not necessarily to hit all 50K, though that would be nice and really help m,y ultimate goal of finishing Burnt Silver before the end of the year. The goal was more getting myself to write every day, after four months of writing maybe one or two days a month.
I haven’t done too badly until the last few days…where I haven’t written at all. Even one some days, all I got was 500 words in, but I wrote.
It’s hard not to get caught up in the competition, when I have friends daily posting their fabulous word counts and how far ahead they are. It’s hard not to sit down with a tightness between my shoulder blades because I’m so. Far. Behind.
I think that’s why I’ve skipped the last few days. I was only 4K behind then, but I got stressed. Overwhelmed. I could feel the familiar run-from-November-syndrome coming on. And when I get stressed, my favorite–absolutely unhealthy–way to deal with it is to just ignore that it’s happening and ignore the thing that’s making me feel stressed in the first place.
*mutters to self* Not going to stress, not going to eat chocolate, not going to hide under blanket…
This year, though, even if I am behind, I’m determined…I will not quit. After all, I have a book out now. And I’m determined that Burnt Silver will be out next October, new baby or not, shiny new book ideas or not. So I’m gonna keep trucking on even when the inclination is to stop and binge-watch TV to catch up on Doctor Who and Supernatural.
Keep going, fellow NaNo-ers.